Papers of Sir Cecil Beaton

Had arranged with Colonel Pepys to take her into Shaftesbury on Easter Sunday to go to church, as she spent last Easter Sunday in hospital. This did not happen as Brigitte wanted to go to the Assumption Convent at Sidmouth for a retreat. Discusses Brigitte's faith. Beaton may rest assured that if her asthma attacks seem to be harming Swan Lake at all then she will give it up. Tells Beaton about the history of her asthma and how it seems to be brought on through worry. Also discusses her accident. "It is a wonder I am not in a lunatic asylum!". Dr Bandit, who is also a psychologist, "wormed it out" of her that she has been worrying about many things, such as Olga's affairs, the shock about Binkie Beaumont, and the loss of part of her inheritance. Believes this is probably the cause of her asthma attacks and they have possibly been made worse by an allergy to pollen or dust. Feels very bitter and resentful. Is tempted to pack a bag and go abroad never to return. Brigitte has come back and brought a book entitled "Peace of "Soul". Describes the book. Brigitte says that all the people she admires are raving about it. Olga returns next Wednesday. She wrote in a letter, "I only love you and Diana". This letter is strictly confidential and she knows Beaton will tear it up at once. Getting her worries off her chest has made her chest feel lighter. Hopefully Dr Bandit will let her get up on Saturday if it is warm. Hopes Beaton's lumbago is departing. She is paying Mrs Hill for the week's work. Discusses the Ivanovic pictures from Vogue.